WednesdaysThoughts

I have this really wonderful friend~ she decided that I needed some positive reinforcement so each and every day she has been telling me "You deserve better".

For the first time since she started this, tonight I actually BELIEVE it. Not on just a logical level~ but at the heart level.

I had to reschedule my son's visit with his father because of my daughter having an obligation. Now the other day I told ya'll about the mistake I made with the email to him that I sent to everyone on my friends list~ he responded to that email in the middle of the night. Much like he generally responds to all my emails when he responds.

So last night I sent an email telling him I needed to reschedule and gave him several options to choose from. This morning, no response. I did finally get a response from him around 10am. Went about my day, taking care of things that needed to be taken care of and then...

Time he chose for the visit came. He arrived, bringing his daughter with him. I don't mind that he brought her with him. She is after all our son's sister and hopefully will be an important part of his life. It would have been nice if he had given me a heads up that he was going to bring her. One of those lack of courtesy things he does.

Anyway... they get here. His daughter is in the other room talking to my 21 year old. Baby's Daddy is sitting here talking to the baby. Literally 10 minutes after he got here, he hands me the baby and leaves.

A friend interrogated me when I talked to her afterwards~ She was sure I must have said something to him to annoy him. If I did it was not intentional, or even recognized by me. I didn't say much of anything to him. He asked me a couple of questions, I answered his questions, thats it.

Anyway~ the rest of this tomorrow....